有些事我沒說但我知道結果
有些事我沒說但你有感覺
有些事我沒說但你知道結果
有一天我會插上翅膀飛
有一天我會張開雙眼看
有一天我會見到我的夢中有誰
有一天我會飛過世界的背
當太陽升起的那一天你
再看我一遍你將會發現我所有的改變
2009年5月24日 星期日
2009年5月19日 星期二
沒有標題
此刻的心好醜
不要接近我 好嗎？
恢復了刺蝟的性格
不要碰我 我會發瘋
不是這樣的 到底怎麼了
我不是有心成為算死草
只是 怎麼說。。。也似乎理不清計較的標簽
怎麼？ 我連說話也不曉得表達了
努力地學習說話 只是為了表達心中言語
後來發現 原來沈默是最佳保護層
記得你說過，我是最保護自己的那一個
你很神祕。你總這樣說
直到今天我才發現
你們都了解我
可是我一點都不了解你們
將心比心 我有嗎？
原來 我沒有
三個步伐沈重的女人（也許只有我一人）
蹓躂於街巷 所謂的目的地在哪裡？
每張臉都在笑著 背後呢？
是否都是滿江淚水？
長大了 流淚的任性只限於躲在房角
否則大家都會說你想太多
教育，輔導，老師，媒體，書本，朋友，經驗都教會我許多
可是該如何運用？
忠於自己情緒，同時顧全大局
書本上怎麼從來沒有教？
如何製作網頁竟比生活上的教育來的重要？
努力過的疼惜過的，這樣被否決
啞口無言之餘，還能做甚麼？
該放任還是繼續行走？
我開始不知道如何訴說故事
2009年5月16日 星期六
2009年5月15日 星期五
瘋狂
開始沉醉，開始昏睡。
過多的繁忙事務，開始了淩晨三點鈡的睡眠時間。
也許有人比我更忙，更疲憊，可是允許我吧，讓我的心情説話。
我知道我還是很在意。那份對待，那份看待。
你的尊重呢？
我預著被噓的可能。我知道我不成熟。
可是，是凡人不是嗎？還在學習中呢。
你能夠讓我歇息一會兒嗎？
神經有些錯亂。
沒有辦法讓時間停格，沒有思維，沒有思考，沒有沉澱。
我覺得自己像死屍。
開始膚淺，開始敷衍，我知道我很狗，可是你能夠接受我的沉默嗎？
你的快樂，我沒有辦法了解。
你了解的道理，不代表我了解。
我不了解，並不代表你需要用那種近乎覺得我們是一群愚蠢動物的語氣來説話。
我討厭別人把我當成笨蛋。
也許你真的比我們都清楚，可是對不起，你不懂得什麽是尊重。
摩擦少了，是我開始接受了，還是因爲過於疲憊所以什麽都不想理？
因爲一個用詞，你想要取消我的資格，你嘗試在我的眼中看見悲傷嗎?
錯了。在乎，不是這樣的。
一直拼命尋找安靜，另一頭，卻在製造喧嘩。哪顆是真正的心？
我瘋了，我們瘋了，大家都瘋了。
你，不是單一詞。
請不要隨便對號入座。
歡迎對號入座。
請不要隨便對號入座。
歡迎對號入座。
2009年5月12日 星期二
2009年5月11日 星期一
Feelings nowadays.
I could not deny the joy you guys brought to me, but somehow I felt lonely in a way that no one touches my heart.
We seldom share our interests, thoughts and feelings. Unlike how I was being with them in the past. Not trying to put both friendships into comparisons, but I am trying to be honest to my heart.
There's a special event held on that day. Han Cheng played a slideshow of how important sher gu's and sher bo's company to us. All memories strike in and I couldn't bear the misses I had towards everyone. I was weeping badly. How far have I gone? Somehow I noticed there's only responsibilities I can bear in those activities. My passion once lost again. I felt bad. I always hide under Tzu Chi's comfort whenever I need them but what did I do when they need us?
I saw both of your photos, Connie and Essel.
Finally, we are growing. Chasing dreams in different parts of the world. Sometimes I will think of you girls, my princesses. How have you girls been doing out there? When are we going to share our life stories? I miss your appearance, girls. Give me a warm hug when we meet up. We need that, don't we? Love ya to max.
Life is hectic. Hence, I am trying to live myself better. We always lose something but at the same time, we gain something too. So I am not afraid of losing. I believe there is always a path for us to explore. Different path, different experience, different life.
We seldom share our interests, thoughts and feelings. Unlike how I was being with them in the past. Not trying to put both friendships into comparisons, but I am trying to be honest to my heart.
There's a special event held on that day. Han Cheng played a slideshow of how important sher gu's and sher bo's company to us. All memories strike in and I couldn't bear the misses I had towards everyone. I was weeping badly. How far have I gone? Somehow I noticed there's only responsibilities I can bear in those activities. My passion once lost again. I felt bad. I always hide under Tzu Chi's comfort whenever I need them but what did I do when they need us?
I saw both of your photos, Connie and Essel.
Finally, we are growing. Chasing dreams in different parts of the world. Sometimes I will think of you girls, my princesses. How have you girls been doing out there? When are we going to share our life stories? I miss your appearance, girls. Give me a warm hug when we meet up. We need that, don't we? Love ya to max.
Life is hectic. Hence, I am trying to live myself better. We always lose something but at the same time, we gain something too. So I am not afraid of losing. I believe there is always a path for us to explore. Different path, different experience, different life.
Enjoy your life when you are still able to.
2009年5月10日 星期日
I am making my words clear.
Easily get frustrated nowadays.
" No one was wrong, it only depends on who understands tolerance the most. " he said.
I tried to retort him but neither could I deny it.
Since I shifted in here, my emotions ran to a peak.
You were challenging my emotional intelligence(which I was lack of the ability of managing it). I tried in ways of different communications. Emails, texts, one-on-one communications etc.
But things were getting in a mess. I hate it when someone tends to cross my line and this really get on my nerves. I do not have the responsibilities to respond unlimited texts(we are living under the same roof summo!!) which were not important at all. I gave no response to it but still I find it was a disturbance in my life.
I tried all ways to let you understand how I felt towards your attitude and acts but I noticed you do not understand my language. I had been being selfish due to your appearance and I dislike that. You are always taking advantage on us and you never take good care of the things we lent to you. How many times you want me to explain that we are not rich kid and you are supposed to have your own equipments and food?Do not take things for granted! I can be selfish if I come to that. Can you please try to interpret what I was trying so hard to tell you? I hate being a bad guy but if you continues, I will just let my emotions to take control of it. Do not make me show you my temper. I can tell you are going to be so dead.
" No one was wrong, it only depends on who understands tolerance the most. " he said.
I tried to retort him but neither could I deny it.
Since I shifted in here, my emotions ran to a peak.
You were challenging my emotional intelligence(which I was lack of the ability of managing it). I tried in ways of different communications. Emails, texts, one-on-one communications etc.
But things were getting in a mess. I hate it when someone tends to cross my line and this really get on my nerves. I do not have the responsibilities to respond unlimited texts(we are living under the same roof summo!!) which were not important at all. I gave no response to it but still I find it was a disturbance in my life.
I tried all ways to let you understand how I felt towards your attitude and acts but I noticed you do not understand my language. I had been being selfish due to your appearance and I dislike that. You are always taking advantage on us and you never take good care of the things we lent to you. How many times you want me to explain that we are not rich kid and you are supposed to have your own equipments and food?Do not take things for granted! I can be selfish if I come to that. Can you please try to interpret what I was trying so hard to tell you? I hate being a bad guy but if you continues, I will just let my emotions to take control of it. Do not make me show you my temper. I can tell you are going to be so dead.
I noticed how limited my tolerance are.
2009年5月7日 星期四
Conceptual Photography
拿起DSLR已經二年
奈何這半年内發現自己
停格在某個階段 無法跨越
每次有人讚賞時
我其實有些心虛
因爲我覺得那不是一張作品
而是一張照片
別人眼中的美麗
就是我停格已久 無法跨越的某种障礙
剛看過某些國外攝影師的作品
發現他們的照片都多了一個因素--Concept
終于明白爲何當初Ms Kuik注重Concept多于攝影技術
攝影已經不再局限于美麗和記憶
它更是表達一種概念和格調的手法
也許是時候要突破這框框了
沉睡太久
會忘記初衷的
停格在某個階段 無法跨越
每次有人讚賞時
我其實有些心虛
因爲我覺得那不是一張作品
而是一張照片
別人眼中的美麗
就是我停格已久 無法跨越的某种障礙
剛看過某些國外攝影師的作品
發現他們的照片都多了一個因素--Concept
終于明白爲何當初Ms Kuik注重Concept多于攝影技術
攝影已經不再局限于美麗和記憶
它更是表達一種概念和格調的手法
也許是時候要突破這框框了
沉睡太久
會忘記初衷的
什麽格調適合我？
2009年5月6日 星期三
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